Grazing Hands

I’ve watched cows graze slowly across the land.

Hungry for every bite of fertilized blade they could get.

My father owned nine cows and a single bull.

What a lucky son of a bitch that bull was.

He’d never know the struggle of starting over in a night club and competing with other men where the ratio stood at two to one and odds were one wasn’t attractive enough to take home.

He’d never know the struggle of watching the only woman who’s held his attention for hours brush off man after man and turn down free drink after free drink.

I knew that struggle. I was currently living it.

And she was by far the sexiest woman I’d seen in a long time.

I’d been trying to read her for the past hour from my barstool in the corner. Trying hard to find my “in”.

I’ve memorized her drink, but decided against it after she’d turned down the 6th free drink in the past hour.

For two hours she sat alone in the middle of a night club and seemed to want nothing other than to be left alone.

I refused to except that. You’ll soon learn I can be a stubborn asshole when I really wanted something.

Tonight I wanted her.

I watched her next victim make his way over and cringed as his finger ran down the outside of her arm.

“Wrong move idiot.” I mumbled under my breath.

I watched her turn, prepared to watch another poor sap rejected only to see her smile up at him.

“No fucking way.” I cursed under my breath.

Okay so listen for a second.

I have this theory.

It was one I came up with right after college about single females in night clubs. Every one of them wanted something you just had to find your “in” and play your cards close to your chest. They were either there for free drinks, to dance, or to be fucked so hard they forgot about the man who had just broken their heart.

Sometimes all three.

I told you. I’m an asshole.

This would explain why after two fucking hours she, the woman of my fucking dreams would turn down countless drinks, but respond to a single touch from dumb ass.

She wasn’t here for the drinks.

A slow sultry beat filled the club and I took that as my cue. I made my way over just as dumb ass offered her a drink.

Her eyes caught mine as I approached and I knew I was as good as gold on my next move.

I held out my hand and spoke firm and deep.

“Let’s dance.”

There would be no misinterpretation. This was no question.

It was a demand.

I watched as she begin to hesitate and saw the rejection headed my way.

“Uh uh”.

I shook my head and grabbed her hand rejecting her upcoming rejection and pulled her to her feet.

Dumbass watched in silence as I pulled any opportunity he had away with a single kiss to the back of her hand.

I turned guiding her towards the dance floor. What I did next could make or break me. My next move was just as important as my first move.

At the center of the dance floor I pulled her close. We swayed to the beat of a song I’d never heard before. I held her gaze and let my fingertips graze her lower back. I watched her lips part slightly at her inhale.

Ladies and gentlemen I’d just found my in.

She was here because she needed to be fucked. She needed someone to make her forget.

My left hand slid up the back of her neck and I leaned in.

I let my breath find her neck and I twirled our bodies in a small circle, pulling her tight against my chest.

She gasped out as my five o’clock shadow replaced my breath.

I was playing with fire. This beautiful work of art was a ticking time bomb that would most definitely be exploding in my arms tonight.

To be continued…

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Caressing Keys

My head begins to spin
I squeeze my eyes shut
So many unfinished stories
The year has been rough

Write a poem, maybe two
That will hold them over
It’s not enough, I’m overdo
Time to pull back the covers

My palms rest on the keys
As my blood begins to pump
My fingers twitch awake
For so long they’ve been numb

Release.

-VSN

Imagined Dragons

Just a lustful admirer
He asked if I was friend or foe
I was neither
He was the field to my scarecrow

I watched over to protect
When others neglected
And the black birds of the world
Swooped in at his neck

He disappeared
The day after I fell in love
And my life was enriched
With things unheard of

I cried for a minute
But it was all the time I had
To mourn over the forbidden
For only seconds I remained sad

Screaming didn’t help
And these tears don’t mean a thing
Taming this dragon will be impossible
He just wont listen when I sing

-VSN

Missing Pieces

When you call
I come running
I know you’re out there
Can you hear me?
The flashbacks keep coming
Can you see me?
Staring from across the world
Could you take me?
Away from all this chaos
Maybe break me
Do everything you wished for
When you get lonely
Giving the attention you dream of
Do you honey?
Want it all laid out in the open
We could both
Fix the hearts that we’ve had broken
-VSN

Art credit : Talking comics

Lemons for Lemonade

We Humans

We do the craziest things

Ignore someone

Attempting to retrain the brain

To try and get rid of

What drives us insane

Controlling road rage

Just by switching the lanes

Stupid humans

Life just isn’t that easy

It’s hurtful, it’s messy

It’s so fucking sleazy

And you have to deal with it

Love in it

Sleep in it

And there are no refunds

You’ll just have to keep it.

-VSN

Farewell

Sometimes in life
You have to let go
You have to forget
Everything that you know

You can’t have it all
Without the chance of pain
Maybe yours, maybe theirs
Someone’s left in the rain

With one large stone
The castle will fall
You can be the one to throw it
Or you can be the wall

Left all dress up
With no place to go
This itch will last forever
But it’s a scratch I’ll never know.

-VSN

Sometimes

Are you cold?

Let my words flow through you

And heat up your soul

Till your heart thaws

From the pain

And beats with reminders

Of whom you are

Where you’ve been

What you crave

I’ll be your sin

Slow life down

Take it all in

Lose your frown

We’ve all been

Here

But rest my love

This too shall pass

Sometimes love fails

Sometimes love lasts

-VSN

Rupture

The hunger strikes
When you least expect
It grabs you in ways
That you don’t forget
It reminds you of the things
You cannot have
It reminds you of a time
That left you sad
But you feed off of it
As much as you can
Squeeze your eyes shut
And pretend there’s this man
Giving you the pleasure
That you’ve never had
And you reach for the high
Because you need it bad
You float in the clouds
As your fingers roam
But as you glide down the hill
You find yourself alone

-VSN

Abstain

Pupils dilate as eyes meet

My body responds immediately

Nothing makes sense, concentration is broken

I hope to get over it eventually

 

I look for him at daybreak

In the middle of an empty lot

The beast within me rumbles to life

I soothe her until she stops

 

The irony is not lost on me

The timing sucks like hell

I stand finally free to roam

And he’s been locked in Jail

 

His brown eyes pierce from behind the bars

Everything else disappears

It’s just him and me on our personal mars

And this ringing in my ears

 

This need to feel his lips again

Will surely drive me insane

This handsome stranger’s touch I crave

 Is one I must refrain

 

-VSN